seriously.

I'm feeling so depressed right now. really depressed.

even thought i already looked at the pictures of "the boys", still...

have you felt that you were somewhat betrayed?. well, that's what I've been feeling.
let's put it like this.

let's say you have a cousin, your were the closest among the others.she/he even said that"your my favorite-est cousin ever!"
*after some time*
she/he said "we're going to migrate".
before he/she went to the other country, you had a fight.
after she/he left you weren't in contact with each other, since you weren't in good terms when she/he left.

at some time you were able to talk to her online. and you were glad because you are now okay with her.

then your another cousins birthday is today then your so called favorite-est cousin wrote something in her wall like this" to my favorite-est cousin in the whole universe happy birthday!"

what would you feel?.

i felt so sad.
the cousin-ship we had will never return as what we have before.

and yes, I'm crying while typing this.
i just need an output to release my feelings.

sorry if you just read a worthless outburst. *bows*